What's on your X-mas wish list?

um, besides money? this: http://www.fanplusfriend.com/servlet/the-1330/Elegant-Gothic-Aristocrat-Fishtail/Detail

What do you want?

2 hour nightmare

i dreamed the house i grew up in somehow ended up becoming an island. two siblings and i somehow became slaves to somebody who started living there, along with about 45 other people of varying stages of life and background. there was famine in the animal world, foxes and skunks were unafraid of people as they scavenged off of dead animal skins we hunted on the property there. things went bad. the food became scarce and people were dieing of an unknown disease... 15-2- of us planned to escape, my siblings and myself included. a professional escape artist was helping us. we tried to use old equipment, from the rental yard, but most of it was broken and useless... then one of the people next to my room died suddenly... his roommate watched him die... he shriveled up like he was ageing quickly, but his skin turned blue. the next day was to have a very large, very public, tea party on this island hill. that was the day for our escape... we decided to go through with the escape anyhow... i feared for my sister's life, and my brothers safety... that night people asked me about the history of the house... i told them the whole truth about the hill we lived on... my dream also added 3-6 other deaths... they read about them, but i could visualize them like i had been there my self. the tea party, the next day, was going along without a problem. the only strange thing was my table wasn't a table at all, but a heavy duty counter. we were about to make our escape, when an emergency PA system turned on, you could hear breathing, silence, and the a click of a hang up. i looked around, and the ocean was frothing. "TSUNAMI!!!!!" i screamed... but it was too late. all i could do was hang onto the counter as the first huge wave came down the hill toward me and my siblings. after the first wave passed, i looked around for my siblings, my sister was there, crying. i called out to her telling her to pull my brother out of the water and to get on top of the counter. she shook her head. i realized then that the water was frothing pink... my brother hadn't been quick enough. the counter had lifted with the wave and landed on top of him... ripping his body in half as the wave had tried to carry him away.

Spike: what use is there voting when there isn't anyone worth a vote to even vote for.. brown the crook Whitman the ceo neither are worth the time and neither should run this state either way were fucked even more so is brown wins hes fucked this state up once before.
9 hours ago · Comment · Like
Ronnie: likes this.
Ronnie: It's bullshit lol.. why I don't vote.. either way you end up with crap
9 hours ago · Like
Spike: agreed
9 hours ago · Like
Ronnie: Yup.. I was planning on voting when I came of age but eh.. all bad.. realised its a waste of time
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: yep yep just lookat all the crooks in office already.
8 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: You can't whine if you didn't have a say in who got voted in.
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: helli voted someone other then the 2 idiots like they will ever win o.0 so cants ay anything about that tabitha. as it look like one of these 2 morons are gonna win.
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: i didn't see who did through.
8 hours ago · Like
Lucid: I researched them all The Green party candidate was the best one. The reason the Red's or Blues always win is because people are too cowardly to vote outside the two-party system.
8 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Spike: agreed lol
8 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: See? That's what I'm talking about. If everybody actually voted for the best choice, even if it's the lesser of two (or three) evils, you still had a voice in it. If you don't vote, then you're making a statement that you seriously don't care who's in office and you'll suffer with the consequences. The reason why bigger names get voted into office, is because they'll agree with ONE major viewpoint, or, as I saw in the last elections, they vote that way because that's what their friends were voting for. It's like high school peer pressure. People don't have to get into politics to vote either, basically (though not realistically) they just need to know what each individual or proposition stands for. It pisses me off when people are whining about who's in office, and they didn't even vote. If you don't like something then do something about it. Quit your moaning to anybody who'll listen. Grah!!!
7 hours ago · Like
Darren: Or you can argue the opposite: if you don't vote, you can't be held responsible for the shortcomings of whoever gets voted in.
2 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: That makes no sense at all. How can you be held responsible for a person you may or may not have voted for? That's why votes are casted the way they are. Privately. It's nobodies business WHO you vote for. If we went by your logic, however, you didn't vote, you'd be held responsible for not getting the other party voted in. Either way youre being held responsible for your own shortcomings in opinion.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Not voting isn't a shortcoming.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Also, saying that someone who doesn't vote makes a statement that they don't care is the logical fallacy of Projection.
about an hour ago · Like
Tabitha: Not voting is a lack of caring how much the government controls your life, and a lack of caring of people who fought to give you the privilege to vote, and to keep the privilege to choose not to vote. Honestly, not voting seems like a lack of appreciation for what happens on a larger scale in this country, to me. As I said before, you don't wanna vote? Fine, don't vote. But don't let me hear you complaining about laws that did or didn't pass or people who are in power.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Again, that's projection. The people who fought for the right to vote were fighting for the sake of democracy. If someone believes the voting system is unjust and chooses not to vote as a form of civil disobedience, then they would be doing that for the sake of democracy as well.
59 minutes ago · Like
Tabitha: With that in mind, Not voting would hurt the people more than the government. Let's put this on a smaller scale to make my point. 5 people vote for A, 6 people vote for B and 4 people vote for C. 3 people didn't vote for "various reasons". A and B are both evil schmucks who get funding from big corporations. C is meh, not as evil, but wasn't backed by a multimillion dollar company. If those 3 people had voted, it could have been anyone.

At least choose to have a voice.
46 minutes ago · Like
Darren: I don't see how civil disobedience can be likened to not having a voice considering what it's achieved in the past.
(This is my last post here for the sake of not wanting to spam any further.)
28 minutes ago · Like
Tabitha: Actually, if you keep the percentage of people registered to vote who come out to vote (something like less than 65% turnout? Can anybody check that? Cuz it seems low to me) in mind, my scale should have closer to 8 people who didn't vote. so all those people who chose to not vote, just allowed somebody, who may or may not be good for the job, to take over a position of power. How does civil disobedience by not voting help as long as somebody votes? Because there will always be somebody who will vote so long as somebody is running for an office. Because even the person running would vote.
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Is it easier to stay awake or to wake up?

stay awake

What do you want?

"i weep for you
i weep for what i see.
you are you,
a part of me.

what i know is what you show
i scratch the surface should take a blow
what i'm looking for i wouldn't know
but i weep for what i find.

a tear for those i love.
empathy for those i don't.
a curse toward the one i hate
who's coarse and overly smug.

i cry for those i know.
i weep for those i don't.
my anguish is felt for those who hide
in fear, loathing, and self doubt.

my pain is here in this place.
any hope has been left behind
but a tear is still shed for those i knew
who've already finished their race.

my world is spinning off of it axis
though it's small and hard to view
so i pity those who came into contact
or have won vip access."

Perpetuum Mobile- Penguin Cafe Orchestra

Were you ever suicidal? If so, how did/do you deal with that?

Yes I was suicidal back in my teens. I still deal with certain feelings that I would consider "dangerous" at times. It's not something you get over in a day. I went through a lot of dark times and did a whole lot of soul searching before I started looking for prayer in my church.

Even if the person reading this doesnt have a religion or a belief system, I still think it helped me. Because those people were there for me. God was there for me.

Anywho. I don't think anybody ever really gets over certain life events. I think they fade with time, but the traces are always there.

Suicide, is not some funny joke to me. It's real, and it's painful. It's also cowardly and very selfish.

What do you want?