um, besides money? this: http://www.fanplusfriend.com/servlet/the-1330/Elegant-Gothic-Aristocrat-Fishtail/Detail
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
2 hour nightmare
i dreamed the house i grew up in somehow ended up becoming an island. two siblings and i somehow became slaves to somebody who started living there, along with about 45 other people of varying stages of life and background. there was famine in the animal world, foxes and skunks were unafraid of people as they scavenged off of dead animal skins we hunted on the property there. things went bad. the food became scarce and people were dieing of an unknown disease... 15-2- of us planned to escape, my siblings and myself included. a professional escape artist was helping us. we tried to use old equipment, from the rental yard, but most of it was broken and useless... then one of the people next to my room died suddenly... his roommate watched him die... he shriveled up like he was ageing quickly, but his skin turned blue. the next day was to have a very large, very public, tea party on this island hill. that was the day for our escape... we decided to go through with the escape anyhow... i feared for my sister's life, and my brothers safety... that night people asked me about the history of the house... i told them the whole truth about the hill we lived on... my dream also added 3-6 other deaths... they read about them, but i could visualize them like i had been there my self. the tea party, the next day, was going along without a problem. the only strange thing was my table wasn't a table at all, but a heavy duty counter. we were about to make our escape, when an emergency PA system turned on, you could hear breathing, silence, and the a click of a hang up. i looked around, and the ocean was frothing. "TSUNAMI!!!!!" i screamed... but it was too late. all i could do was hang onto the counter as the first huge wave came down the hill toward me and my siblings. after the first wave passed, i looked around for my siblings, my sister was there, crying. i called out to her telling her to pull my brother out of the water and to get on top of the counter. she shook her head. i realized then that the water was frothing pink... my brother hadn't been quick enough. the counter had lifted with the wave and landed on top of him... ripping his body in half as the wave had tried to carry him away.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Spike: what use is there voting when there isn't anyone worth a vote to even vote for.. brown the crook Whitman the ceo neither are worth the time and neither should run this state either way were fucked even more so is brown wins hes fucked this state up once before.
9 hours ago · Comment · Like
Ronnie: likes this.
Ronnie: It's bullshit lol.. why I don't vote.. either way you end up with crap
9 hours ago · Like
Spike: agreed
9 hours ago · Like
Ronnie: Yup.. I was planning on voting when I came of age but eh.. all bad.. realised its a waste of time
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: yep yep just lookat all the crooks in office already.
8 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: You can't whine if you didn't have a say in who got voted in.
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: helli voted someone other then the 2 idiots like they will ever win o.0 so cants ay anything about that tabitha. as it look like one of these 2 morons are gonna win.
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: i didn't see who did through.
8 hours ago · Like
Lucid: I researched them all The Green party candidate was the best one. The reason the Red's or Blues always win is because people are too cowardly to vote outside the two-party system.
8 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Spike: agreed lol
8 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: See? That's what I'm talking about. If everybody actually voted for the best choice, even if it's the lesser of two (or three) evils, you still had a voice in it. If you don't vote, then you're making a statement that you seriously don't care who's in office and you'll suffer with the consequences. The reason why bigger names get voted into office, is because they'll agree with ONE major viewpoint, or, as I saw in the last elections, they vote that way because that's what their friends were voting for. It's like high school peer pressure. People don't have to get into politics to vote either, basically (though not realistically) they just need to know what each individual or proposition stands for. It pisses me off when people are whining about who's in office, and they didn't even vote. If you don't like something then do something about it. Quit your moaning to anybody who'll listen. Grah!!!
7 hours ago · Like
Darren: Or you can argue the opposite: if you don't vote, you can't be held responsible for the shortcomings of whoever gets voted in.
2 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: That makes no sense at all. How can you be held responsible for a person you may or may not have voted for? That's why votes are casted the way they are. Privately. It's nobodies business WHO you vote for. If we went by your logic, however, you didn't vote, you'd be held responsible for not getting the other party voted in. Either way youre being held responsible for your own shortcomings in opinion.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Not voting isn't a shortcoming.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Also, saying that someone who doesn't vote makes a statement that they don't care is the logical fallacy of Projection.
about an hour ago · Like
Tabitha: Not voting is a lack of caring how much the government controls your life, and a lack of caring of people who fought to give you the privilege to vote, and to keep the privilege to choose not to vote. Honestly, not voting seems like a lack of appreciation for what happens on a larger scale in this country, to me. As I said before, you don't wanna vote? Fine, don't vote. But don't let me hear you complaining about laws that did or didn't pass or people who are in power.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Again, that's projection. The people who fought for the right to vote were fighting for the sake of democracy. If someone believes the voting system is unjust and chooses not to vote as a form of civil disobedience, then they would be doing that for the sake of democracy as well.
59 minutes ago · Like
Tabitha: With that in mind, Not voting would hurt the people more than the government. Let's put this on a smaller scale to make my point. 5 people vote for A, 6 people vote for B and 4 people vote for C. 3 people didn't vote for "various reasons". A and B are both evil schmucks who get funding from big corporations. C is meh, not as evil, but wasn't backed by a multimillion dollar company. If those 3 people had voted, it could have been anyone.
At least choose to have a voice.
46 minutes ago · Like
Darren: I don't see how civil disobedience can be likened to not having a voice considering what it's achieved in the past.
(This is my last post here for the sake of not wanting to spam any further.)
28 minutes ago · Like
Tabitha: Actually, if you keep the percentage of people registered to vote who come out to vote (something like less than 65% turnout? Can anybody check that? Cuz it seems low to me) in mind, my scale should have closer to 8 people who didn't vote. so all those people who chose to not vote, just allowed somebody, who may or may not be good for the job, to take over a position of power. How does civil disobedience by not voting help as long as somebody votes? Because there will always be somebody who will vote so long as somebody is running for an office. Because even the person running would vote.
15 minutes ago · Like
9 hours ago · Comment · Like
Ronnie: likes this.
Ronnie: It's bullshit lol.. why I don't vote.. either way you end up with crap
9 hours ago · Like
Spike: agreed
9 hours ago · Like
Ronnie: Yup.. I was planning on voting when I came of age but eh.. all bad.. realised its a waste of time
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: yep yep just lookat all the crooks in office already.
8 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: You can't whine if you didn't have a say in who got voted in.
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: helli voted someone other then the 2 idiots like they will ever win o.0 so cants ay anything about that tabitha. as it look like one of these 2 morons are gonna win.
8 hours ago · Like
Spike: i didn't see who did through.
8 hours ago · Like
Lucid: I researched them all The Green party candidate was the best one. The reason the Red's or Blues always win is because people are too cowardly to vote outside the two-party system.
8 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Spike: agreed lol
8 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: See? That's what I'm talking about. If everybody actually voted for the best choice, even if it's the lesser of two (or three) evils, you still had a voice in it. If you don't vote, then you're making a statement that you seriously don't care who's in office and you'll suffer with the consequences. The reason why bigger names get voted into office, is because they'll agree with ONE major viewpoint, or, as I saw in the last elections, they vote that way because that's what their friends were voting for. It's like high school peer pressure. People don't have to get into politics to vote either, basically (though not realistically) they just need to know what each individual or proposition stands for. It pisses me off when people are whining about who's in office, and they didn't even vote. If you don't like something then do something about it. Quit your moaning to anybody who'll listen. Grah!!!
7 hours ago · Like
Darren: Or you can argue the opposite: if you don't vote, you can't be held responsible for the shortcomings of whoever gets voted in.
2 hours ago · Like
Tabitha: That makes no sense at all. How can you be held responsible for a person you may or may not have voted for? That's why votes are casted the way they are. Privately. It's nobodies business WHO you vote for. If we went by your logic, however, you didn't vote, you'd be held responsible for not getting the other party voted in. Either way youre being held responsible for your own shortcomings in opinion.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Not voting isn't a shortcoming.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Also, saying that someone who doesn't vote makes a statement that they don't care is the logical fallacy of Projection.
about an hour ago · Like
Tabitha: Not voting is a lack of caring how much the government controls your life, and a lack of caring of people who fought to give you the privilege to vote, and to keep the privilege to choose not to vote. Honestly, not voting seems like a lack of appreciation for what happens on a larger scale in this country, to me. As I said before, you don't wanna vote? Fine, don't vote. But don't let me hear you complaining about laws that did or didn't pass or people who are in power.
about an hour ago · Like
Darren: Again, that's projection. The people who fought for the right to vote were fighting for the sake of democracy. If someone believes the voting system is unjust and chooses not to vote as a form of civil disobedience, then they would be doing that for the sake of democracy as well.
59 minutes ago · Like
Tabitha: With that in mind, Not voting would hurt the people more than the government. Let's put this on a smaller scale to make my point. 5 people vote for A, 6 people vote for B and 4 people vote for C. 3 people didn't vote for "various reasons". A and B are both evil schmucks who get funding from big corporations. C is meh, not as evil, but wasn't backed by a multimillion dollar company. If those 3 people had voted, it could have been anyone.
At least choose to have a voice.
46 minutes ago · Like
Darren: I don't see how civil disobedience can be likened to not having a voice considering what it's achieved in the past.
(This is my last post here for the sake of not wanting to spam any further.)
28 minutes ago · Like
Tabitha: Actually, if you keep the percentage of people registered to vote who come out to vote (something like less than 65% turnout? Can anybody check that? Cuz it seems low to me) in mind, my scale should have closer to 8 people who didn't vote. so all those people who chose to not vote, just allowed somebody, who may or may not be good for the job, to take over a position of power. How does civil disobedience by not voting help as long as somebody votes? Because there will always be somebody who will vote so long as somebody is running for an office. Because even the person running would vote.
15 minutes ago · Like
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Saturday, October 23, 2010
"i weep for you
i weep for what i see.
you are you,
a part of me.
what i know is what you show
i scratch the surface should take a blow
what i'm looking for i wouldn't know
but i weep for what i find.
a tear for those i love.
empathy for those i don't.
a curse toward the one i hate
who's coarse and overly smug.
i cry for those i know.
i weep for those i don't.
my anguish is felt for those who hide
in fear, loathing, and self doubt.
my pain is here in this place.
any hope has been left behind
but a tear is still shed for those i knew
who've already finished their race.
my world is spinning off of it axis
though it's small and hard to view
so i pity those who came into contact
or have won vip access."
i weep for what i see.
you are you,
a part of me.
what i know is what you show
i scratch the surface should take a blow
what i'm looking for i wouldn't know
but i weep for what i find.
a tear for those i love.
empathy for those i don't.
a curse toward the one i hate
who's coarse and overly smug.
i cry for those i know.
i weep for those i don't.
my anguish is felt for those who hide
in fear, loathing, and self doubt.
my pain is here in this place.
any hope has been left behind
but a tear is still shed for those i knew
who've already finished their race.
my world is spinning off of it axis
though it's small and hard to view
so i pity those who came into contact
or have won vip access."
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Were you ever suicidal? If so, how did/do you deal with that?
Yes I was suicidal back in my teens. I still deal with certain feelings that I would consider "dangerous" at times. It's not something you get over in a day. I went through a lot of dark times and did a whole lot of soul searching before I started looking for prayer in my church.
Even if the person reading this doesnt have a religion or a belief system, I still think it helped me. Because those people were there for me. God was there for me.
Anywho. I don't think anybody ever really gets over certain life events. I think they fade with time, but the traces are always there.
Suicide, is not some funny joke to me. It's real, and it's painful. It's also cowardly and very selfish.
Why does your profile have such scary and disturbing questions? xD jk
Because I have scary and disturbed friends who want to ask me things anonymously cuz they're afraid to ask me otherwise? I dunno. There are some really dark thoughts out there. I don't know why people would ask me… maybe cuz I'm honest? I'm not afraid of answering questions.
Monday, September 20, 2010
what does a guy have to do to get you to go out with him?
a whole lot. and i mean, a WHOLE lot. i won't just go out with a guy cuz he wants to go out... that seems pointless to me. and i most definitely won't accept the first time i'm asked. this isn't a game to me. though i'm sure the way i say that it makes it sound like it is... this is about whats best for me. i'm not interested in casual dating. it's a useless practice in a useless society. i'd prefer something that is more solid concrete in nature. something that will last more than 9 months. currently, i'm not even interested in serious dating. whats the point? i can't support myself let alone another person. i want to be able to go whever i want, whenever i want, with whomever i want, and not have to worry about another person. how can i do that if i'm seriously dating somebody? if a guy seriously wants to date me, then he should make a serious effort to show me that he really DOES care enough to want to seriously date me... if he likes me enough to ask me, then he should like me enough to ask me more than twice.
what's one of the hardest things for you to do?
accept rejection..? i'm a very insecure person. i have zero self confidence. so sometimess i have to reassure myself that i'm cared for... so i guess, accepting that i'm cared about.
what would you do if a friend told you they were raped?
i'd cry... very very hard. if it was recent, i'd take my friend to the hospital, and i'd cry. but i'd want to be there for my friend. whether it's just listening, holding my friends hand, or taking them away for a weekend. i'd do whatever i could for that friend.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
I'm so sorry
I'm sorry I snapped at you.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I left the block of cheese out.
I'm sorry I don't make enough money
I'm sorry I like to spend money on people I care about
I'm sorry you're so disappointed in me
I'm sorry I have issues
I'm sorry my alarm goes off multiple times at the crack of dawn twice a week.
I'm sorry I'm not your idea of a good kid
I'm sorry I mind other peoples business
I'm sorry I can't control my temper better
I'm sorry I don't pay enough attention to my family
I'm sorry I'm so emotionally unstable
I'm sorry I don't have somebody who I can go to for advice and such
I'm sorry I exist
I'm sorry I made you angry
I'm sorry I can't do anything right
I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment
I'm sorry I'm not home more often
I'm sorry I stay out so late
I'm sorry I take things personally.
I'm sorry you don't like my friends because of how they look
I'm sorry I take stealing so seriously
I'm sorry I give bad advice
I'm sorry I can't get a hold of that manager
I'm sorry you're angry at me.
I'm sorry I'm moving
I'm sorry I'm not everything you expected me to be
I'm sorry I'm fat
I'm sorry I'm not pretty
I'm sorry I bake and then share them with everybody
I'm sorry I'm picking my dad over my extended family
I'm sorry you nitpick about everything I do wrong at home
I'm sorry I can't take a joke.
I'm sorry I tried to be the good child and failed.
I'm sorry I'm so unloveable.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I left the block of cheese out.
I'm sorry I don't make enough money
I'm sorry I like to spend money on people I care about
I'm sorry you're so disappointed in me
I'm sorry I have issues
I'm sorry my alarm goes off multiple times at the crack of dawn twice a week.
I'm sorry I'm not your idea of a good kid
I'm sorry I mind other peoples business
I'm sorry I can't control my temper better
I'm sorry I don't pay enough attention to my family
I'm sorry I'm so emotionally unstable
I'm sorry I don't have somebody who I can go to for advice and such
I'm sorry I exist
I'm sorry I made you angry
I'm sorry I can't do anything right
I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment
I'm sorry I'm not home more often
I'm sorry I stay out so late
I'm sorry I take things personally.
I'm sorry you don't like my friends because of how they look
I'm sorry I take stealing so seriously
I'm sorry I give bad advice
I'm sorry I can't get a hold of that manager
I'm sorry you're angry at me.
I'm sorry I'm moving
I'm sorry I'm not everything you expected me to be
I'm sorry I'm fat
I'm sorry I'm not pretty
I'm sorry I bake and then share them with everybody
I'm sorry I'm picking my dad over my extended family
I'm sorry you nitpick about everything I do wrong at home
I'm sorry I can't take a joke.
I'm sorry I tried to be the good child and failed.
I'm sorry I'm so unloveable.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
What's your favorite dish?
You mean main course kind of dish? I loooooved my moms stroganoff I can still make it though I haven't ha a reason to recently… ooooh and my moms potato salad!!! I'd boil and peel potatoes and eggs all day the day before, for moms potato salad… tater tot casserole, meat loaf, oven pancake, pizza burgers… ya know, I like food way too much to have a favorite! Lol
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Forgive me if this has been asked already--but what got you into Japanese music? (If it has been asked, what's your favorite song ever? If that's been asked, then... blue pill, red pill, or pink marshmallow peeps?)
PINK MARSHMALLOW PEEPS!!!! XD I <3 marshmallows!!
Remember, you asked…
Lol but in all seriousness, I think I came around to Japanese music quite naturally… probably like most people do right? Kingdom hearts FTW!
Lol I fell in love with Utada. I wanted to find more of her music but didn't know where to start. Not knowing about the underground following at the time, I kinda just stumbled around the Internet (pre-YouTube) looking for music videos. I ran into a great Korean website called bestiz.net (or was it bestyz.com? Maybe it was both lol) And found a treasure trove of not only Korean pop music, but also Chinese pop, Japanese pop, Japanese rock (my first taste of X-Japan was there ♪( ´▽｀) ) and I think I once found a most amazing PV for a Chinese rock band with a female lead vocalist… wish I could find that again…
I'm a rocker at heart. I'd already become tired of the whiney emo music that was taking over the airwaves. So finding bands like duel jewel, Dir en grey, deadman, and X-Japan was like a light at the end of a tunnel!
Of course I went through my awkward stage of actually thinking jpop boy bands could actually sing… (I <3 eye candy!)
YouTube came around soon after and I got introduced to all things Japan! Ooooh wonderful dramas!!! (I also liked Korean and Taiwanese dramas but that's beside the point) takoyaki!! Onigiri!! Sooo much great stuff! So many amazing bands!!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Freaking out
My best friend on earth just told me that her husband just officially proposed to her. She also announced that I'm to be her maid of honor. This is the time when I seriously miss my mother. If I'm feeling this way now, when I'm not even the main attraction, how am I going to feel if I ever get married? Or if I ever decided to have a child? Oh gosh, what am I going to do when my little sisters get married?!?! I'm not even supposed to be in town in August!!! I'm supposed to be in las Vegas by the end of July!!! TT.TT looks like school will have to wait until spring 2011… I am not happy. I'm thrilled for my friend… but this is a major feat to happen within a few months… there's no WAY I can leave town now…
Friday, June 4, 2010
What's one food you'll never eat again?
Can't say. Tastes change all the time so I retry things from time to time.
Do you believe there's intelligent life on other planets?
I beleivr that life on another planet is possible… improbable, but possible…
Thursday, June 3, 2010
You are after the most wanted criminal in the world. Would you be a superhero, the commander and chief of a militia, an ex cop with nothing to lose, one of the criminal's victims held hostage, Shia Labeouf, the criminal's son,or his secretary?(paperwork)
The superhero… cuz no matter how many times you kill em off, they always come back in a crown of glory.
You're one of the most wanted criminals in the world. What would it be for, and why aren't you on the moon, threatening to blow up the world with a laser? *pinky to mouth*
Most wanted? Mm being too smexy! Cuz it's criminal that I must hide my smexyness in a fat suit all the time! Roflmao
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
What's a good book to read?
That totally depends on you. What you like, what you dislike. I could tell you what's popular, or what's my personal tastes, but that doesn't mean you will like it.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Puwede ba kitang tawagan? Kung may problema ka, sabihin mo sa akin. Akong bahala. Basta para sa iyo! Ako na ang magdadala . . . Bakit ang mahal magmahal?
Are you having a problem you need to talk about?
Bạn nói "I love you" thế nào trong tiếng Việt?Một thứ tiếng thì không bao giờ đủ. :(
I don't say "I love you" unless I mean it. So, normally you won't hear me say it to anybody beyond family or girl friends
Saturday, May 22, 2010
would you surf on teh back of a shark?
If I knew it wouldn't eat me… and I took surfing lessons… and if somebody would do it with me… if I worked my courage up enough, yeah, totally!
Would you have liked to have been a reporter?
Lol when I first read this question, my first reaction was; "oh gosh no!!"
I really really never liked doing research. It's a major issue whenever I have to write a report cuz I'm so crappy at citing my sources.
But you know, I think it really depends on what kind of reporter we're talking about… I intensely enjoyed interviewing people in concert lines and later editing video together for others to enjoy. If I could make a living just doing that I would. If you're talking 60 minutes reporter or Barbara Walters or something… no… I'm not smart enough, interesting enough, unique enough, nor quick enough (thinking of quick responses or on the fly questions), to be able to make a positive lasting impression
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Hi Tabi! (it's not twobooks . . . cough cough) anyway, my question is how are you? :)
Hello not Twobooks. I'm super tired ATM. I have to be up for work in a few hours time. I should have known better than to have picked up somebody elses work shift.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
what would you do if I told you I was pregnant?
The more I look at this question, the more I feel the need to respond.
My response would totally depend on who you are in my life.
My best friend told me she was pregnant very far into the pregnancy because she was afraid of my response. Mostly, I was hurt because she waited so long to tell me. I was sad, but I got over myself almost immediately and was there for her as much as possible.
You see, because I love her like a sister, it didn't make a difference to me. I don't care. She's so important to me, I'd do whatever I had to do to be supportive and encouraging. however, I'm also prolife. If she had told me that she had wanted an abortion, which she didn't btw, that may have killed me… and although I may have still loved her, it would have definitely forced me to look at her in another way. I now have an honorary niece who is two and a half. She's beautiful. Neither her mother, nor I, can think about life without this precious child.
If I know you, And this was an unplanned pregnancy, I would still love you. I might be hurt, but so would you be.
Monday, May 10, 2010
what is your favorite highlighter color?
Doesn't matter!!! Highlighters make everything seem perkier!!
do you ever wish your life would be easier living in your friends' shoes?
Lol I don't think living in my friends shoes would be easy… I think my friends lives look easier, but I think everybody has tough spots. It's how we deal with those tough spots, and how we react to each as they come, that helps determine how tough it seems.
do you have any posters on your walls? if so, of what?
Not currently no. Everything on my walls is my diceased grandfathers art and pictures of friends and fam… my posters are all still put away ATM.
have you traveled to the midwest or east coast? if so, where are your favorite places? if not, where would you like to visit?
My family used to travel a lot. I would guess I've seen more states than most Normal people will see in their lifetime. I loved everywhere we went… mt rushmore, Mississippi river, eagle river Wisconsin (worlds #1 snowmobile city) Chicago trainstation (anybody remember the station scene in my best friends wedding?), the corncob palace, Eisenhower's childhood home, the smithsonian, Lincoln memorial… tons of places I've been to. But I think the best times I remember was when we'd stop at the little antique shops. Interesting items, often with a story, even more interesting people, with a story to tell.
do you have any posters on your walls? if so, of what?
Not currently no. Everything on my walls is my diceased grandfathers art and pictures of friends and fam… my posters are all still put away ATM.
do you own any pets?
My g'ma and aunt both have dogs… I had to give my cats away… I still see one of them daily… he still hates my guts…
besides japanese, what other asian languages would you like to learn?
Lol I'd like to learn them all! But I think a friend of mine has decided for me that I'm going to learn Korean second.
do you read books? have a favorite?
I read. I used to read a whole lot more. Francine rivers is one of my more favored authors. I love reading the classics… little princess, huckleberry Finn, white fang, Nancy drew etc etc. Poetry wise, I also like Silverstein, Stevenson, Poe… I read a WHOLE lot of manga too…
do you use a laptop or a computer? what brand/model?
Roflmao! I have a computer… I haven't turned it on in probably over a year… no interwebz. I do EVERYTHING via iPhone, or I go over to my aunts house to pay bills.
do you paint your nails?
On occasion yes… but it's too much of a hassle to keep them pretty looking.
how satisfied with the performance of your iphone? rate from 1-5. 5 being extremely satisfied. give reasons.
Mmm probably a 4. I like the ease of it. Makes things simple. But I DONT like The short battery life, The price tag, the addictiveness level, and the random crashes.
pick one band that you cannot live without
Just one?!?!??! Crud. Ummm… this is tough. I guess Maybe @direngrey?
Memories of my mother
things I remember about mom, or things she would say
"cash check credit card, first born son?"
Would get really red in the face when she was angry.
Adored red hair and curly hair.
Had a likeing for nice arms on a guy.
Could pick up an accent almost perfectly within moments of speaking to a person with that accent.
"this is the day the Lord has made! I will rejoice and be glad in it!" wake up announcement for Tabitha -.-!!
"O-U makes the ow sound" ::pinches tabithas arm:: TT.TT
Loved Petra, michael w smith, and Amy grant.
"5'2" and half on a good day"
2 1/2 - 5 shoe depending on the width of the shoe
Collected plates and bells
Learned to ride a motorcycle so she could ride with dad.
Wanted us to go to college
Loved cheddar cheese on her apple pie
Was very shrewd in understanding people. (gift of discernment?)
Constantly late like clockwork.
Workaholic
Willing to sacrifice for her children.
Always had an issue about her weight.
Loved earth wind and fire, Crosby stills Nash and young, the eagles, and 60's & 70's rock
Extremely smart
Had a personal relationship with Christ that she refused to comprimise. Even if it cost her friends and family.
Didn't take any bull from anybody but her kids (and even then we still got in trouble)
Had issues remembering peoples names
Firecracker baby (born July 4th)
LOVED dressing up.
Liked her shoes.
Had a pair of Barbie Jelly half heel shoes with pink feathers.
Prayer warrior
Was on the mexicali/tijuana cook crew for close to 18 years
Was a great listener
Gave wonderful advice
Hated stupidity
Loved chocolate chips in her Cream of Wheat and raisins in her meatloaf.
Would give any music an honest shot and discovered that she liked selected Metallica and Megadeth as a result.
Usually sided with her kids when they got pulled over by the cops.
Slow to anger. (but us kids had her number)
Didn't understand why her kids didn't like rhubarb.
Knew more about cars than most men.
Deborah W. Ogren
July 4 1955 - February 13 2009
Happy Mother's day mommy. I miss you.
Tabitha
"cash check credit card, first born son?"
Would get really red in the face when she was angry.
Adored red hair and curly hair.
Had a likeing for nice arms on a guy.
Could pick up an accent almost perfectly within moments of speaking to a person with that accent.
"this is the day the Lord has made! I will rejoice and be glad in it!" wake up announcement for Tabitha -.-!!
"O-U makes the ow sound" ::pinches tabithas arm:: TT.TT
Loved Petra, michael w smith, and Amy grant.
"5'2" and half on a good day"
2 1/2 - 5 shoe depending on the width of the shoe
Collected plates and bells
Learned to ride a motorcycle so she could ride with dad.
Wanted us to go to college
Loved cheddar cheese on her apple pie
Was very shrewd in understanding people. (gift of discernment?)
Constantly late like clockwork.
Workaholic
Willing to sacrifice for her children.
Always had an issue about her weight.
Loved earth wind and fire, Crosby stills Nash and young, the eagles, and 60's & 70's rock
Extremely smart
Had a personal relationship with Christ that she refused to comprimise. Even if it cost her friends and family.
Didn't take any bull from anybody but her kids (and even then we still got in trouble)
Had issues remembering peoples names
Firecracker baby (born July 4th)
LOVED dressing up.
Liked her shoes.
Had a pair of Barbie Jelly half heel shoes with pink feathers.
Prayer warrior
Was on the mexicali/tijuana cook crew for close to 18 years
Was a great listener
Gave wonderful advice
Hated stupidity
Loved chocolate chips in her Cream of Wheat and raisins in her meatloaf.
Would give any music an honest shot and discovered that she liked selected Metallica and Megadeth as a result.
Usually sided with her kids when they got pulled over by the cops.
Slow to anger. (but us kids had her number)
Didn't understand why her kids didn't like rhubarb.
Knew more about cars than most men.
Deborah W. Ogren
July 4 1955 - February 13 2009
Happy Mother's day mommy. I miss you.
Tabitha
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Hell hath no fury…
I remember likeing you in junior high. You were in high school, you were hot, you were the most "bad looking" kid at church. Mohawk hair, leather jacket, you even had a tattoo! You also had a geeky side. You owned Excalibur, you were a star wars buff, you loved sailor moon, you had a copy of spice girls 1st cd, you liked ramstein. You used to play around on the piano and would share your knowledge of other languages freely.
You were my brothers friend so I saw you often. You lived right up the street from where my family worked. My parents liked you. You were kind to me, Even though it was obvious I had a schoolgirl crush on you. Most of my bro's friends would avoid me, you never let on being uncomfortable. You encouraged me to be something. You weren't afraid of being in a room with me.
I watched you graduate high school and get married right away. That hurt. I didn't like your wife, but I held my tongue. I watched you have a kid. I was still in high school. You invited us to his second birthday. Cake went everywhere. He was a joy. You adored him. You had a daughter not long after that.
About 8-9 years ago, You fell off the face of the earth. I moved on to other crushes, other friends, other life…
About 3-4 years ago you show up at my home looking for my brother. You just got out of jail. You told me you didn't do it. I believed you. I still believe you. They took your kids away. You were devistated. You lived for them.
You came over a handful of times. We spoke about whatever came up. Things were ok. You hugged me. I froze. I didn't understand why you hugged me. I still don't. It freaked me out. I wanted to ask. I wanted to push you away. I didn't say anything. You disappeared again.
I no longer hug men unless I consider them extremely close, or if they're family. It freaks me out. I don't blame you for my quirk, but it may have been a subliminal incentive.
You showed up again a month ago. You're insistant on messageing me on a weekly bassis. You leave comments on my page. You give me your phone number and tell me to text you. Against my better judgement, I respond to your private and instant messages. You fawn, flirt, and talk about old times. I'm flustered and flattered with the attention. I eventually give in to texting you as well.
You ask to 'go on a date but just as friends so that we both can say we haven't been on a date in a loooong time still'. Normally, I would call that "hanging out". However, with the way you spoke, I allow myself to think it's maybe something more. I freak out, but agree.
We set a date for early the next week, but reschedule for later the same week after finding a conflict. I think about calling it off many times, but refuse to after receiving encouragement from friends. Half an hour before I leave for your house, you text me a hasty message, and I quote, "Going to have to cancle. Big drama". What am I supposed to say to that? I acknowledge I received the text with an "ok" and wait for an apollogy or a request to reschedule. None has come.
It's been over 36 hours. I'm torn between feeling hurt, concerned, disappointed, and angry. I feel led on. No text, no email, no phone call… did you just fall off the planet again? Are you avoiding me? You seemed excited about meeting up with me. I don't want to know what the drama is. It's not my business. But I do want to know that it all wasn't just some sort of complex ploy or act. I want to know you're ok. You're my friend. I don't want to be upset for some stupid, or no reason at all.
You were my brothers friend so I saw you often. You lived right up the street from where my family worked. My parents liked you. You were kind to me, Even though it was obvious I had a schoolgirl crush on you. Most of my bro's friends would avoid me, you never let on being uncomfortable. You encouraged me to be something. You weren't afraid of being in a room with me.
I watched you graduate high school and get married right away. That hurt. I didn't like your wife, but I held my tongue. I watched you have a kid. I was still in high school. You invited us to his second birthday. Cake went everywhere. He was a joy. You adored him. You had a daughter not long after that.
About 8-9 years ago, You fell off the face of the earth. I moved on to other crushes, other friends, other life…
About 3-4 years ago you show up at my home looking for my brother. You just got out of jail. You told me you didn't do it. I believed you. I still believe you. They took your kids away. You were devistated. You lived for them.
You came over a handful of times. We spoke about whatever came up. Things were ok. You hugged me. I froze. I didn't understand why you hugged me. I still don't. It freaked me out. I wanted to ask. I wanted to push you away. I didn't say anything. You disappeared again.
I no longer hug men unless I consider them extremely close, or if they're family. It freaks me out. I don't blame you for my quirk, but it may have been a subliminal incentive.
You showed up again a month ago. You're insistant on messageing me on a weekly bassis. You leave comments on my page. You give me your phone number and tell me to text you. Against my better judgement, I respond to your private and instant messages. You fawn, flirt, and talk about old times. I'm flustered and flattered with the attention. I eventually give in to texting you as well.
You ask to 'go on a date but just as friends so that we both can say we haven't been on a date in a loooong time still'. Normally, I would call that "hanging out". However, with the way you spoke, I allow myself to think it's maybe something more. I freak out, but agree.
We set a date for early the next week, but reschedule for later the same week after finding a conflict. I think about calling it off many times, but refuse to after receiving encouragement from friends. Half an hour before I leave for your house, you text me a hasty message, and I quote, "Going to have to cancle. Big drama". What am I supposed to say to that? I acknowledge I received the text with an "ok" and wait for an apollogy or a request to reschedule. None has come.
It's been over 36 hours. I'm torn between feeling hurt, concerned, disappointed, and angry. I feel led on. No text, no email, no phone call… did you just fall off the planet again? Are you avoiding me? You seemed excited about meeting up with me. I don't want to know what the drama is. It's not my business. But I do want to know that it all wasn't just some sort of complex ploy or act. I want to know you're ok. You're my friend. I don't want to be upset for some stupid, or no reason at all.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
So you like eating out. What's your fave place to eat out?
Chinese… or a steakhouse… but Jack in the box is the best fast food.
whats the best form of communication? telephone, email, texting, snail mail, sky writing, telegram, cell phone etc etc
Ummm I think snail mail is special. If a person actually took the time to write me a letter, they're something special.
do you hate your coworkers?
Hateing pretty much anybody takes up way too much of my time. Some of them get on my nerves, but I don't have to come home to any of them! ^.^
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Who brightens up your day?
My sisters. The guy I like. My favorite mechanic at work. My cousin… lots of people
How old do you feel?
Depends on the day.
My bady feels like a 50 year old a lot lately.
When I'm around somebody I like I feel like a 12 year old
it just depends.
on your question of what makes you happy, you responded 'eating out'. what kind of 'eating out? ;)
Uhhh going out to eat? Going to a restaraunt to eat, going to a friends house to eat, going to a BBQ to eat…
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Morning wake up call.
Growing up, my mom used to try to wake me up however possible. Unfortunatly, I was not a good morning person. My mom used to sing the last verse from a childrens Christian song called "arky arky". I've added a link to the song at the bottom.
Another song, I don't remember what it was called… I remember the lyrics went something like; it's a happy day, and I think I like the weather! It's a happy day, and I'm living it for the Lord! It's a happy day…" everything else is kind of blurry… I think the next line went something like; "it's a happy day, and things couldn't get much better. I'm living each day with the promises of Gods word!" there was a second or alternate verse as well… went something like; "it's a grumpy day, and I really don't like the weather! It's a grumpy day, and I'm living it for myself! It's a grumpy day, things aren't gonna get better! Living each day with my bible up on the shelf!" … something like that… if anybody knows it tell me the correct lyrics k?
I also remember she used to say "this is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!" To try to wake me up… yeah that didn't work either.
Lol I remember my family used to rent costumes and they would compare the scariest mask we had to me in the morning. It was funny!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMVLj1fIvQA&feature=youtube_gdata
Another song, I don't remember what it was called… I remember the lyrics went something like; it's a happy day, and I think I like the weather! It's a happy day, and I'm living it for the Lord! It's a happy day…" everything else is kind of blurry… I think the next line went something like; "it's a happy day, and things couldn't get much better. I'm living each day with the promises of Gods word!" there was a second or alternate verse as well… went something like; "it's a grumpy day, and I really don't like the weather! It's a grumpy day, and I'm living it for myself! It's a grumpy day, things aren't gonna get better! Living each day with my bible up on the shelf!" … something like that… if anybody knows it tell me the correct lyrics k?
I also remember she used to say "this is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!" To try to wake me up… yeah that didn't work either.
Lol I remember my family used to rent costumes and they would compare the scariest mask we had to me in the morning. It was funny!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMVLj1fIvQA&feature=youtube_gdata
Monday, April 26, 2010
Who do you want to meet?
Many many people. I want to meet people who stretch me, people who criticize constructively, people who won't tear me down every chance they get. People who hold me accountable to what I say and do.
Famous people though… lots and lots of famous people. Just cuz I want to ask questions lol. But I'd like to be friends with anybody who isn't going to be bringing drama into my life.
If you could color your hair ANY color, which would you choose?
I've done many colors. Hmm but I don't think I've done blue. So maybe blue.
What makes you sad?
Death… Drama… being spurned… lotsa stuff I guess. But many times sadness will go hand in hand with other emotions.
What makes you happy?
Marshmallows… babies (but not kids)… danceing… music… friends… holidays… concerts… singing… fellowship… baby animals… fleece… milkshakes… eating out… lotsa stuff makes me happy… I don't know how much of it makes me content though.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
what kind of music do you like?
a lot of kinds... but i'm more partial toward japanese rock and rock...
favorite gameboy game from back in the day?
metroid... don't even remember which one... i beat the end boss probably 10-20 times... but it was fun...
How would you describe your style?
ummm i dress darker... but i don't really have a style... i don't like being boxed into any style...
If you suddenly came into wealth. You never have to worry about financial issues ever again. What would you do with all the excess money?
I once figured out what I would do with a million dollars… if I had money to burn…? Hmm.
Well, first off I would set up a trust fund for each of my siblings. Probably a cool million or something for each of them.
I'd tithe the original sum.
I'd set up an account that would automatically send out Ananymous checks to my charity organazations on a monthly bassis.
I'd set up a "play" account that I would use to take myself and certain friends on concert tours and whatnot.
I'd buy 5 houses in Wisconsin, a condominium complex in Sydney Australia, an apartment building in Tokyo japan, and a hotel in Gothenburg Sweden. Then I'd hire people to take care of each building and rent rooms to low income people who want to vacation. (of course I'd be able to vacation in them as well. ^.^)
I'd continue to work because it would help form discipline in my life.
which are better formspring questions, serious questions or random questions?
Dunno. Whatever. What do you like asking most?
if you could be any age again, and just redo that one year, which would it be?
Dunno. Ask me again on my death bed.
most embarrassing song on your mp3 player?
I'm not embarrassed about any of my music. I like what I like. Period.
Which is better, facebook, twitter, or formspring?
I like facebook cuz it's easy to keep up with friends. But I like Twitter cuz I can be as detailed as I like and I know who's stalking my tweets. But formspring can be fun I guess. I always liked doing those survey dealy bobbers on myspace. So this is just kind of an elite version of that I guess. Formspring would NOT win the better vote though.
favorite cartoon when you were a kid?
Nightmare Ned. Or cardcaptors. Or maybe pokemon. Or was it pepper ann? Dude, I was a terrible tv junkie when I was a kid. I watched everything.
Friday, April 23, 2010
favorite perfume/cologne?
I rarely wear perfume. So I don't have a favorite. But I like scented body washes. Bath and bodyworks had a scent called pearberry I adored… but I truly love the smell of gardenia.
if you were an animal, what kind of animal would you be?
I dunno. Probably a very very well loved dumb dog.
what time do you usually wake up on the weekends/your days off from work?
Rofl weekends aren't days off. My days off… depends if I closed he night before. Sometimes I'm awake as early as 7:30 am or as late as 3:00 pm. Guess it just depends.
what's the most money you've ever spent at one time? what did you buy?
I spent a lot of money on my computer, and then another time I put down a large sum as a down payment on my car. Those are probably my two largest transactions ever.
what are you doing this summer?
I'm going to a miyavi concert in June. Going to anime expo in July. No other plans.
do you think you're smarter than, as smart as, or less smart than your friends? than your family members?
I think it depends on what kind of smart we're talking about. It Also depends on the friend. maybe when I was ten I was smarter than most of my friends. And I was probably a jerk about it too. now, I'm probably dumber than your average Schmuck
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
What popular phrase can you not stand?
You know, I always liked phrases and such. "What's yer poison?, tough cookies, water under the bridge," etc etc.
But you know, I really can't stand the phrase (or variations of) "I'm so sorry for your loss". Why is the person sorry? And who are they REALLY sorry for? It seems so selfish to say. And then people have the audacity to say something like; "call me anytime if you ever need anything". If I called a person up 2 or 3 years down the line… would that offer still stand? Unlikely. Or what if I asked for a long term thing? Like a place to stay? Yeah I didn't think so.
When I hear somebody losses somebody close, I will do whatever I can to not say that phrase, because it sounds so patronizing to myself.
weirdest thing you've ever eaten?
… uh… I dunno. I used to eat over easy eggs on top of biscuits and gravy with catsup. Is that weird enough? I'll try anything, but I don't consider what I eat weird… what do you consider weird?
who's your best friend? why?
… I think I've answered this before. Please check my previous reply to a question a while back.
where is your favorite place to be?
Umm that depends. I like to be where my friends are. But you know, I'll go wherever I like almost whenever I like. My favorite place to be… I don't really have a favorite.
how much can you drink before you're drunk?
It takes very little alcahol to make me dizzy. Especially if it's a hard alcahol. However I've never allowed myself to get drunk enough to be considered "drunk" because normally I have to drive later.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
What's the best birthday you've ever had? How old were you turning?
Hmmm. Don't really remember. I'm the worst at time lines. Probably my… 10th? I took my family out to a movie. I paid. Was really proud of that.
Or maybe my… 16th? My mom took me to the outlets and we bought me some new clothes… or was that my 15th…?
My… 21st birthday…? I decided to throw a party at my home. invited 80+ people. Rented a karaoke machine, a dunk tank, a slushie machine, even had food ready for everybody. 5-6 people showed up. Lol guess that probably wasn't the best birthday was it? But we had fun! Lotsa food and dunk tank! The important people showed up, and that's how I know they're my best friends. (I didn't go out drinking no)
Normally I end up working on my birthday, or people just don't remember. Guess I'm not memorable.
What's your favorite holiday and why?
When I was a kid, probably christmas or Easter. Easter was a big deal when I was a kid.
Nowadays… either thanksgiving, or Halloween.
Thanksgiving cuz I get invited to somebody elses house to eat and hang out and have fun and eat as much as I like and nobody cares.
Halloween cuz I can dress up as weird as I like and nobody cares.
least favorite class you've ever taken?
I hated pre-algebra. Actually, I don't think I hated the class, I think the teacher didn't teach. I ended up dropping the class. I hate math.
How do you feel about leftover food? Do you save it in the fridge and eat it, or toss it in the trash?
Depends on why it's leftovers and how well it does being saved. If it's salvageable or good reheated I'll save it. Leftovers make great lunches at work the next day.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Are you hungry?
Not particularly. But I haven't had a real appetite since mom died. I'll eat and whatever, but if I ate how I used to, I wouldn't be losing weight like I have been… which is good, but unusual.
Do you answer all the questions you get?
I try. Sometimes I think you're reasking the same question though, so i don't respond or if I don't feel like answering… sometimes I accidentally delete questions too.
Are you religious?
No. But I do believe in God. I also believe that the Bible is inerrant. And I believe that God the father, God the son, and God the holy spirit are three separate beings but one God. He is perfect in his omnisciense.
Were you ever suicidal? What was that like?
Yes I was. I don't talk about it. If you need to talk to somebody then please find help. I'm not good with it. However, if you're interested in my life story, please consider writing me in a more private way.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Do aliens sleep in beds? Or maybe they sleep standing up…? Or maybe they don't sleep at all!!!?!?! @0@
Aliens sleep with their eyes wide open. They can even drive while sleeping.
What did you do last night?
Went to a concert!!! Saw Judgement Day!!! Super nice guys and amazing musicians!!! XD
Do you wear fun jammys to bed?
Band shirts. Cuz they're the most comfortable things on the face of the planet
Have you ever lowered your expectations because you liked somebody?
Ummm I may have thought about it once or twice, but I've never compromised my values.
Who do you love?
I Eros some people probably… have in the past… not really into that type of love right now.
I storge my family. I may even agape my siblings.
I philia my friends. Some of my friends may even borderline storge.
I agape myself. That's why I don't care how I look. No matter what, I'm just me.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
were you closer to your mom or dad growing up?
Ummm I was a daddys girl for a long time. But I became closer to my mom around sixth grade.
what is the worst thing you've ever done to another person?
Since I was a kid, I've never had very many reservations saying what I think, though I've become less so with age. but I've said some pretty terrible things in my time. I'm more careful now.
But I think the worst thing I did… I dunno. I feel absolutely terrible about once giving too strong of a punishment to one of my charges once. I dont babysit anymore.
How do you want to die?
In a way that is humble, and yet brings glory to God. Preferably painlessly.
are you introverted, extroverted, or somewhere in the middle?
Depends. For the most part I'm extroverted, but I don't really fit into crowds. Small groups are ok I guess. I really have no idea.
if you could cut outone thing from your life that you would never have to deal with again, what would it be?
Tampons. Or the pill. Either way it's annoying.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Who is your best friend?
My best friend…? I don't have one best friend. I've been blessed with 3-5 best friends. Kelly, Mel, Gabby, DK, and probably Jenny would be in my top five.
Do you have many friends?
I have many many acquaintances. Many of them would call me their friend. But because my acquaintences would be hurt, I call them friends. I actually have a very small circle of friends. They are my friends because I feel confident in trusting them with sensitive information. My circle of acquaintences would probably range around 500. My actual circle of friends probably isn't much bigger than 75. I have 3-5 best friends that I'm not afraid to tell almost anything to. So, if you include everybody who would call me a friend, then yes, I have a very large number of friends.
When you like a person, how do you tell them? Or do you tell them?
I'm pretty transparent when it comes to the opposite sex. I've never actually told somebody that I've liked them. normally It's pretty obvious to the person. So that's kind of awkward when he doesn't feel the same way or if I don't want him to know. Maybe if I thought I had a chance it would be different. So no, I don't and I really wouldn't know how. But I'd much rather be approached anyway.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Who was your first love?
I can't answer that… he may read this someday, and I don't want to ruin the relationship I have with him right now. Of course, I really don't think i've ever truly been in love. Maybe in love with love, but I think I'm rather selfish and have loved myself more than loved others.
Who's your idol?
I don't think there is any person that is my idol… but maybe there's a 'thing' that's my idol. Music may be an idol for me. I guess I'd have to ask people I know what they think my idol is.
What website do you spend the most time on?
Oooh that's a tough one. Maybe facebook…? No, most definitely Twitter.
Who's the most overrated musician?
If I told you who I thought that was… i would be concerned about my welfare.
Who was your first kiss?
Romantically? My first kiss was on the cheek was from a girl. Kinda weird shock. She nice and whatever, but I don't swing that way. Kisses are huge deals for me. I don't even hug boys normally. I'm still waiting for my first kiss.
Monday, April 5, 2010
What was the worst movie you've ever seen?
Ummm I THINK it was 'the raven' the 2006 edition. I turned it off 10 minutes in after my sister mentioned maybe it got better after 5 minutes.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
I don't blog very much do I?
Right now I do everything from my phone. I have a computer, but it's not connected to the Internet. Typing via phone keyboard is not easy, but I've started to finesse the art of it.
I've learned in the last year that I'm not a very good person. If I don't like the way a kid is acting, I'll call them on it. I've lost babysitting jobs and have been rebuked at work because of it. If you screw me over, I may not say anything about, but I'll definitely stew about it for quite a long time. I'll even complain about it to other parties.
People always tell me I'm so nice, or that they 'love me'. How am I supposed to respond to that? 'thank you'? It makes me feel awkward. Please stop telling me how nice I am. I'm not a nice person. Get it through your thick skulls. I'm selfish, stubborn, loudmouthed, and am an emotional roller coaster.
There is one thing I am proud of though. I can keep a secret. If you tell me something, chances are good that I'm not gonna repeat It unless you say I can.
When I was a kid, I wanted to become a massage therapist. I also wanted to become a semi truck driver. I don't see myself doing either one anymore though.
I want to learn Japanese.
I want to go to college and get a major either in English, marketing, or Asian studies.
I want to work closely with music.
I want to help Japanese bands come to the USA. (I've joined a street team but it feels slow)
I want to live in japan. Even if it's just for a little while.
There are so many things I want to do. But I don't know how to go about getting these things done.
I've learned in the last year that I'm not a very good person. If I don't like the way a kid is acting, I'll call them on it. I've lost babysitting jobs and have been rebuked at work because of it. If you screw me over, I may not say anything about, but I'll definitely stew about it for quite a long time. I'll even complain about it to other parties.
People always tell me I'm so nice, or that they 'love me'. How am I supposed to respond to that? 'thank you'? It makes me feel awkward. Please stop telling me how nice I am. I'm not a nice person. Get it through your thick skulls. I'm selfish, stubborn, loudmouthed, and am an emotional roller coaster.
There is one thing I am proud of though. I can keep a secret. If you tell me something, chances are good that I'm not gonna repeat It unless you say I can.
When I was a kid, I wanted to become a massage therapist. I also wanted to become a semi truck driver. I don't see myself doing either one anymore though.
I want to learn Japanese.
I want to go to college and get a major either in English, marketing, or Asian studies.
I want to work closely with music.
I want to help Japanese bands come to the USA. (I've joined a street team but it feels slow)
I want to live in japan. Even if it's just for a little while.
There are so many things I want to do. But I don't know how to go about getting these things done.
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